Thoughts About Life/Death

I have been thinking a lot about life/death recently. After this VA Tech thing, then a lady I work withs nephew was shot and killed in KCK a few days ago. Life is PRECIOUS....we should never take for granted any breaths we are allowed. That is SO cliche' I know....rediculous to even say out loud because it's something that's been said over and over and over. But.....think about what it means. Any minute your life could be over. Think about how powerful that statement is. How would the people around me be affected if I was not here anymore. Would I be mourned? I'm sure I would be mourned by my kids, they would be devistated...and their lives would be turned upside down. Where would they live? I don't know if my husband would be up to...or even allowed to raise them as his own. Would I want them to go live with their fathers? Not really. I wonder how my mother would feel if I passed away. I would never presume to think she would be devistated. My mother is always in "survival" mode. My husband of course would be left without a wife and his step-kids would no longer be a regular part of his life. I wonder if my family would make efforts to keep him involved....probably not. I have been in his life for 3 years....not long ...he'd mourn and move on.

This is all very morbid...but stuff that needs thought about sometimes.

We spend a lot of time thinking about the RIGHT NOW...how am I feeling?...am I comfortable?...am I happy? I wish I could be stripped of all physical and material posessions....so I can learn to appreciate simple things like breathing, seeing, hearing, having love in my life, having relationships with people I care about. There are so many simple things that I am TAKING FOR GRANTED.

To anyone who reads this: Take about 30 seconds and think about what YOU are taking for granted.