Friday, May 22, 2009

My Dream

My Grandmother came to me in a dream. This morning (early...about 5:30am) I was sleeping soundly dreaming away. I was in my backyard...I know it was my home, but of course it looked a little different. Anyway, I was in the middle of my dream when I looked over and grandma was sitting with her feet up kind of reclining on the deck. It as a covered deck (hense the same but different). I went over and sat down next to her and she reached out her hand and I held her hand for a long time....until something in my dream distracted me and I moved on. She didn't say anything and she was a younger version of herself. Maybe even younger than she was when I was born. She looked like she did in pictures when she was younger.
I don't think it was random...I think she came to me....as her younger self from heaven. I think she came because she knows I've been thinking about her a lot and she wanted to let me know she's happy.
Funny thing is...I can't get myself together this today. I cried telling Lizzy about it this morning and I cried telling a co-worker about it. The whole thing has shaken me up a little.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Once Again

New weight loss goals:

No Soda
No Snacking
No Night Eating

I'm starting today and going to see how long I can do it. I seriously need to do something....I'm starting to bulge out of my clothes (all of my pants are too tight), I don't like being photographed and I don't want to wear short sleeve/sleeveless shirts anymore because my arms have put on weight and have cellulite on them (I didn't know that was possible). It's time to do something drastic...I have to make a change.

It'll be tough this weekend to be perfect because we'll be out of town living out of a hotel, but I'm going to try very hard to do the best I can.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Whats Up With Me?

I know I know...I have not posted an actual blog in a while. I guess I just go through "dry spells" with blogging. I'm not a natural writer like my sister Penny, so unless I feel like I have something to say..which is not often, I just don't blog.
Let's see.... I've lived in my new house for almost 2 weeks. I'm still not totally unpacked. In fact, my bedroom looks pathetic. I have a mattress and box springs on the floor- no frame. I don't have a dresser, so my clothes are in boxes. I DO have my shoe racks..(yes, racks) up with shoes on them. The house is coming together....I'll post pics next week sometime. It is not and will not be perfect for a while...but it took all of the money I had to get into my house, and all I care about right now is building my savings back up. That is VERY important to me. I want to have 2 months of expenses put away before I buy anything for my house.
I am still thinking about my grandmother. It's strange that she is not alive anymore. I think about the last few weeks with her frequently. Talking with her....washing her hair...feeding her. I had my hand on the pulse in her neck only 45 minutes before she died...just because I was sleepy and it was a way for me to rest but know she was still with us. She died about 45 minutes after I rolled over and drifted off to sleep (in a chair in her hospital room). My mom was the only one awake and the time....I'm really glad she got to be with her mom alone when it happened. I just can't believe she's gone.
I miss my dogs....a lot. My house is so quiet now. It's actually really nice, but the few times I've seen them since I moved out my heart broke.
My mother recently gave me a stack of items she's kept from my childhood...and my baby book. I have REALLY enjoyed looking at and sharing the memories with my kids. All 3 kids have taken their time looking through my baby book very carefully and reading everything that was written. Thanks Mom...it's awesome that you kept that stuff.
Kids get out of school next week- Wednesday to be exact. I know they are really looking forward to it and so am I. I love summer because when I get up in the morning I'm only responsible for myself and don't have any stops on the way to work. It's awesome. Oh- and I'll be going to Vegas again this summer. That will be a lot of fun. I'll get to see my little sister- and all of the Vegas family. I always have a great time when I go out there. I plan on doing a lot of walking and working out before I go! I hate going down there and being the chubby girl!!!
NIN and Janes Addiction is next week! I'm really excited to see them both again. I also bought JD and I tickets to see Dave Matthews Band in September at the Sprint Center. It's her 18th birthday present. That will be really fun.

Friday, May 15, 2009

This Is Why My Kids Don't Have Internet In Their Bedrooms



....and by the way, this Dad rocks (except the GD bombs)

He Should Have Won



...and I'm not watching the finale! (arms crossed with mean look on my face)

Saturday, May 9, 2009

I am a homeowner!

I own a home. Let me repeat...I ..Me...Moi... own a home.

Can you tell I'm excited?

Pics soon!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Yipppppppe!

As of 9am tomorrow ...I will officially be a homeowner!

One Republic “Apologize”

This is a pretty annoying song...but these kids are SO cute to watch singing it.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Lucky Bitch


Trent Reznor is engaged....

Weekend Baseball Pictures

Saturday
Chris catching....

... Chris on 1st base...

Chris & Liz...really not wating to take a pic together...
....all the games are over for the day


Sunday
Chris up to bat...
...Hanging in the dugout...
...after the Tournament was won...with this trophy...
....Team Picture!!!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

What a Great Weekend

This is the first weekend in a long time that I was able to relax and do things I wanted to do...and I really took advantage of it.

Saturday: 10am game - Mac-N-Seitz shut out the team they played. Went to lunch at Chillis (yum!) and back to the ballpark for a 2pm game- another shut out. Saturday night Lizzy and I went to see "Bride Wars" at the local dollar theater ...actually, the tix are $2.50. We were able to see the movie, get popcorn and a drink all for under $10.00. That rocks!

Sunday: 8am game- another shut out...go team! Went home until the next game at noon...I don't remember the score, but I think the boys only allowed 1 run for the team they were playing. The championship game was at 1:15...and they were playing a team that they have played several times. They are a GREAT team and always bring the competition. The boys WON the championship game with a score of 4-3. It was a nail biter- and SO fun!
After we got home from the game; Chris, Lizzy and I took Sophie for a walk to the park. We ate the pork roast that I started cooking first thing this morning (it was wonderful). Then, Chris and I packed his bedroom...yay!...progress!

Now- 2 kids in bed....one to go (but she's a teenager so I won't be tucking her in..haha). I am actually able to RELAX. I've needed this.

Tomorrow- I will upload pictures from the games.