MJ

I did a lot of driving last weekend....which meant a lot of listening to the radio. We heard a LOT of Michael Jackson music due to his passing last week. I was trying to explain to Lizzy how significant his music was when I was a kid because, to Lizzy...he's a singer who has had a long career and turned into a very strange person. When I was a kid..he was not strange...he was COOL. Really cool. I was telling Lizzy how when his music videos came out it was a prime time event. He was handsome, could dance and sing. We didn't yet know about his abusive childhood...and really, for me I was completely out of touch with the "Jackson 5". It was not until I was a teen that I became aware that he'd had a long career. Yes, he turned into a pretty strange, troubled, possibly criminal person. But when you look at the music he turned out over the span of 40 years, you can't help but reminisce a little. Name a MJ song and I could tell you what stage of my life I was in. The video below is the first performance I remember very well of him...it was in 1893 I believe...so that would make me 6. I remember thinking that I wanted to dance like that!!! I used to enjoy dancing (ask Penny) and he was definitely a person who could inspire me to do it.

Eating Out

For the last several years I've struggled with getting myself into the shape I want to be in. I am not overweight...but I don't want to just let myself go so I'm constantly trying new ways to make myself eat right...exercise etc. I have been "off" real coke for about a month and a half now...with the exception of just a few times of cheating. I'm very proud of myself actually. I think I may have discovered that I enjoy Diet Pepsi better than Diet Coke though...who knew? I can't help but to eat like shit when I eat out....esp in a restaurant. Eating out is a treat for me, so when I sit and look at the menu, I think "what sounds awesome at this moment" not "what is good tasting and good for me". That's what I should be thinking. Last night I went to 810 Zone with a few work colleges and had about 5 (fantastic) hot wings....half of a half pound burger and most of my fries. I was SOOO good, but when I entered the food into my fitday account...I was sad about my lack of control. 100 calories for EACH hot wing! Mmmm they were so good though!

At lunch we're going out to eat, and I'll be out again at dinner time. This is all because there is a person I work with in town and the company pays for everything. I am going to try to restrain myself from over indulgence ...but in all honesty, I can't promise anything.

Updates

First- the duct tape didn't work. Really, it didn't have a chace to because the tape wouldn't stay on her foot. So- we went to the Dr. and had the wart frozen. I think she's going to need another treatment or two.

We got a dog! Her name is "Trooper Grace".....Trooper was her given name be previous owners...I hate it but she knows it and comes when called. She is a fantastic dog. She is about a year and a half...potty trained and very well tempered. I just love her. She is a mini beagle and weighs in at about 10lbs.

Chris is 9- his birthday was yesterday...and it was a great day. He had two baseball games, they won both and the tournament. It was also fathers day, so his grandmother had a nice birthday/fathers day party at her house. It was a really fun time.

My Duct Tape Experiment

My daughter Lizzy has a "plantar wart" on her foot. It's right by ...actually almost between her big toe and her 2nd toe on the bottom of her foot. I know two people who have had them removed and both people have described very painful and long healing processes. I was doing some research a few days ago and discovered an alternative method : duct tape

So- we will begin the "duct tape therapy" tomorrow and I will keep you informed on how it's going. It should take a few months, but I'd rather try this and see if it works rather than taking her straight over to the doctor for a painful procedure.

Adjusting

Adjusting to my new life has been rough. Not only do I not have a husband...my companion and partner, but I no longer have my dogs.

I am very independent. I am enjoying putting together my new home on my terms and doing things my way. I am happy that I now only have to rely on myself to make my life happen the way I want it to. However, I do feel a bit empty inside...and I am missing 3 big parts of my life.

You know, I realize that what is going on is the best thing for me and my family- I do, but all of the change is overwhelming sometimes. In the last 2 months I've lost my grandmother, my husband and my dogs.

Ok, this whole post cannot be depressing. Let's see.... There is a chance that a new K-9 friend will be coming to live with us. She is Chris' dog (at his dads). She is a German Shepherd named Sammie and she is 5 years old. I have really enjoyed the peace and quiet of not having a dog around but I reeeeaaaaally miss it. Sounds silly huh? Most people who have owned a dog would understand where I'm coming from.

Birthday Flowers

My sister Penny got me a really beautiful bouquet of flowers for my birthday. Then, Jewel and Aaron both bought me separate dozens of yellow roses (24 total)...so they combined all 3 bouquets and look at how it turned out!!! I LOVE them!

Don't ever let a girl tell you she doesn't like flowers- she's lying. ALL GIRLS LOVE FLOWERS!

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32

I turned 32 yesterday

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